Is that possibly an official condition? 
I crave organization, details, plans … yet, my super left-brained self is constantly at odds with this desire, resulting in this sort of reverse-Monet effect.  You know how a Monet painting reveals beautiful detail when viewed from a distance, but when you get up close it’s an unidentifiable mess of color and strokes?  Well, my things appear to be complete chaos when seen from afar but when you lean in closer you will discover a meticulous pattern.
I bring this up as I am trying to …